Life moves fast...everything that's true is a lie and everything thats up is down...

...15 lbs later and i've been working my ass off. Literally.
Life always likes to toss shit at you tho, doesn't it?
Suddenly, I've lost someone so important in my life, I really can't say which way is up. I used a phrase the other day and really it describes things so well, I didn't realize how well until I stopped to think about it.

I've dropped my basket. Everything is rolling away in a million different directions and all I can do is watch as it does and cry.

Not everything I've got is gone. I know this and inspite of feeling absolutely horrid, like someone is repeatedly punching me in the stomach, I am determined to hold on to what I've got left. That includes the focus I have on getting myself in shape and healthy. It took me a long time to get my motivation back and if there is anything that I can keep him from taking from me it will be that.